Mixed weekend

This weekend was a very mixed weekend. I went to virden to visit with my roomates family and for Jay's 18th birthday party. That was lots of fun, everyone thought i looked just like the imfamous AMY (alyssa had an austrailian exchange student a couple years ago, and everyone thinks we look the same) ran into sean and doug too which was cool.
Now for the not so great part of my weekend. Im not so good with feeling and such and Im not really sure how to tell people this or if I should even tell anyone this. On the other hand I would want to know if it happened to you guys so I'll just spill.
As some of you know my grandma lee has been battling cancer for a while now and well on saturday morning she passed away. I don't think it's really hit me yet. It was so weird last night when I was preaying cause I always pray like look after my family and friends and my grandma and grandpa lee but then i was like wait ummm ya it was really weird but i don't know. I found out about it on the way to virden and i just sat in the back seat and I could even tell alyssa cause I knew that if I said it out loud I'd lose it. It was really weird like if I didnt say it out loud that it wouldn't be true or something. But ya I think If i keep writing about it that I'll likely start crying, and alyssa would likely be very confused lol me just sitting here typing and crying. So if you see erica dont be scared to give her a hug lol but maybe not in public cause I can see her bursting into tears and shes not really a hugger but if you could just let her now that your there for her cause I can't really be there that would be great.
I think for now thats all I really have to talk about, the rest is just stuff you've all heard before so I'll catch you all later, miss you guys lots xoxox kaitlan