pressin on pressin on...

hey chicka so thought i should fill u in on my life since i havent written for a while....
BOYS: i've decieded that I can't have a boy and stay focused on school so although i wouldnt push a boy away im really not looking or putting effort into finding one either...this said i still have moments of o wouldnt it be nice to have someone to cuddle with but ya whatever SCHOOL FIRST!!
ME: so i sorta need a gym buddy to keep me responsible u know what i mean cause lately i just eat eat eat and i've always believed that someone who wants to lose weight just has to say im going to go to the gym and eat less but lately i've just ate ate ate and started a protest against gym going so i need u to keep me responsible...i feel so out of control right now where as when i was going to the gym early every morning i just felt better about myself ....and therefor better about life and whatnot......i just feel like a tired blob now....im not saying im fat ( although that is how i feel) im just saying i want to get in control again....so please be my gym buddy and give me a hard time about eating right and going to the gym please!!!
other then that im boring and feel like a failure at school....see ur not the only one who feels that ways sometimes, u just have to realize and i do that sometimes u get down, i find it happens the most in fall cause there is less sun and what not so yes just "pressin on pressin on, cause I'm done with that, I wont take this anymore......."lol yes yes
had soup for dinner today and it was possibly the best meal i've had in a long time ...but back to studying might write more laters...night

time for a change

SO (i like how i start the majority of these with SO lol) ever since i got to rez this year( realistically since i moved to rez my first year lol) I have felt for lack of better words fat. And the fact that the first two weeks we were here we ate little more then pizza did not help, and since then it has just been getting worse daily. I just watched this video on face book of a friends friend who weighted 270 pounds and decided it was time for him to lose some weight and he did this eight week challenge where he worked out hard core...it was really impressive, i think he ended up losing 30 pounds in eight weeks which is super intense. I dont wan to be that extreme but i want to weigh 135 ( unrealistically i would not complain at 130, but trying to be realistic 135 is ideal), i havent weighed myself in about two weeks but i think i am in the 145-150 range.
Biggest reasons for current weight gain are pretty obvious eating crummy food to the extreme and not going to the gym. SO after watching this guy video journal his challenge im going to attempt to blog my challenge which isnt very extreme at all but ill try it anyways...at the moment i cant fully commit cause i just dont have time, which i realize is an excuse but i just don't so im going to focus on better eating for the first while.....i did really well yesterday but not so great today.... Here i go-goal for tomorrow, hmmm..... start small.....no candy, which seems like not a big deal but i have the worst sweet tooth ever so here goes nothing....starting my week challenge which if i can do that ill move on to smaller better things hehe